My Troubled Sunrise.

My thoughts are all garbled.
Its a constant noise.
I need you beside me.
But I have silenced my voice.
You are all that I need.

My Troubled Sunrise.

A vaccuum of a day that sucks me within.
You are the freedom of the winds.
The expanse of the skies.
Can you cure me of my troubles?
I am going insane.
An exhilaration that I need,
In certain ties.

Do you know what I am saying?
May be not.
My thoughts are all garbled.
Its a constant noise.

.....

i want to cradle you
and rock you to sleep.

but this world's a warped place.
whats seems so right , is wrong.
what seems so wrong , they say is right.
its an endless fight.
but all i want to do

is to cradle you,
and rock you to sleep.

hopeless

Its a hopeless cause, something that never will be.
But I still wish 'What If ?' it was to be.
But it isn't.
'What if' , you were mine.
'What if' , your smile was for me.
'What if', your dreams were with me.
'What if', my future was yours too.
'What if', I was your love.
'What if', my hapiness was yours.
Some things that aren't.

and some things that are.
I am yours.
My smile is for you.
My dreams are with you.
My future is yours.
You are my love.
Your hapiness is mine.
Its a hopeless cause, something that never will be.
But I still wish 'What If?' it was not to be like this.
But it is.

water

Water. placid,,calm.
unruffled,, quiet.
The sunrays playing tricks on her.
She smiles back with thousand twinkles in her eyes.

Water. rippling,,stirred.
quivering,,fluttered.
The wind came and touched her face.
She danced with many a ripples on her skirt.

Water.flowing,, cascading.
falling,, deluging.
The Ocean beckoned her with a gentle call.
She ran with a thousand ligthenings in her feet.

Water.Frozen,, numb.
icy,, still.
There are no tricks, no touch, no calls anymore.
She stays there, waiting for the season to change.

Trivenis

Been writing Trivenis for quite some time now.
Its an extended form of a 'SHER' innovated by Gulzaar. Poet completes a thought in two lines and then gives a twist in a third separate line.
For example one of gulzaars...
ROZ UTHKAR CHAAND TANGA HAI FALAK PE RAAT KO
ROZ DIN KI ROSHNI ME RAAT TAK AAYA KIYE

HAATH BHAR KE FAASLE KO UMR BHAR CHALNA PADA

And some of Mine :
..here's the first attempt 3/21/2006 8:31 PM
on love:

aye aasman hain ishq tumse chand ne jab ye kahan
haathon ko dal kar jeb me aasman kuch has pada

mujhse se nahin , mere andhere se, roshan ho tum jiski wajaah.
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on love in these times:

woh lahu se kiya karte the ishq ka izhaar tab
woh zunoon, woh zazbaa, woh zamaana aur hi tha

aajkal lal syahi bazaar mein sasti mila karti hain
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on the search for love :

Madhoshi, Mausiki , Mehkashi kaha.
Har naam ki khidki se jhank ke dhundhaa tumhe.

Lukka-Chippi, khel to wahi puraanaa bachchpan ka hain.
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on jealousy:

Bahut jali main, Grahan ko toka, baarish ko roka.
Tapi har din, Suraj se ishq kiya jo.

Hain khwaab dawaa ab, Raat hi souten ban baithi hai.
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on perspective:

kise sunaau ,kaun sunegaa meri kahaani.
Har zubaan par ek fasaanaa apna hi hain .

badal lo chehre , khamosh fizaa hogi.
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on work n the love of it :

geeli chaadar dhak kar soi
sukhaa paseena aur pani

kaam hi aaram hain , sukun kise chahiye
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on longing:

oons chaat kar pyaas bhujhai
raat se gala sukh raha tha.

ab aasman ko tak rahi hun , shayad baarish hogi
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on i don't know what ;p

woh gaye, ek nigah dal kar hum par.
magar khamosh hum ab tak yahi hain.

us ek sihran ko thamne mein umr guzar di humne.
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on love again:

jal ke khaak hue ishq mein teri
magar khushbu ne sara aalam dho daala.

chandan ki agarbatii thi, aag pani ho gaya.
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on a rich fat seth:

ek chaand si uski dulhaan
ek chaand uske sir ka haal thaa.

ek chaand mota pet ,chandi seth kamaal thaa.
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on kashmir:

us chinaar ke patte lal hain
tere pyaar ke rang ki tarah.

woh lahu hain , ya mausam ki lali ?
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on the poet in us
:
har insaan shayar hain,
zindagi ka khaazana hain

ye lut jaye to gum nahin , luta kar ke hi paana hain.
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on appreciation:

ek tareef hi hain jo zinda karti hain
warna zindagi kuch thak si jaati hain.

yeh din khud hi qaatil hain , har saans qatl kiye jaati hain.
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on togetherness:

andhera saath tha, magar akela tha.
ab tum ho , to alaam jagmagaa gaya hain.

ek machis ki tilli, tera chehra, aur ufanti hain roshni.
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on the ragpicker:

ek sui, dhaago ka ek lachcha
sadak se katran kapdo ki bator rahi hain.

dhand hain , choti ki frock seeni hain .
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on beauty:

naapte ho, taulte ho, kaise ise maapte ho ?
fiza hain, hawaa hain , hain behta hua paani.

kayanaat ki har sheh hi khubsoorat hain.
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on the joy of meeting:

Hazaar-Ha milna aapse.
Har bar Hazz-e-wasl badhta Hi gaya.

Hain Hasrat, ki deedar-e-hazaar aur bhi ho.
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on life:

tez raftaar zindaagi ki sadak pe bhaaga.
Dur tak manzil ka nishaan dikhtaa hi nahin.

chup kar teri bahon mein , kuch der to jeet ka guman hota hain.
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on defiance:

sir ko jhukaaye hamii bhar di.
haath tham ke saath to chal di.

dahleez par to ab kiya hain, nazar to ab milaayee hain
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on just the imagery:

raat ki boojhi angeedhi
raakh mein sana tha koyla

dhanak usme thi , ya sawera chakha tha

kuch aur

mausam me tera pyaar nazar aaya hai.
main jaha dekhoo tu har bar nazar aaya hain.
aaina jhooth bolta hain shaayad.
ki apne aks mein tera deedar nazar aaya hain.

ae khuda kyun intehaan-e-yaar leta hain.
kyun har bar yeh faaslaa badha deta hain.
kyun chhalta hain iss masoom dil ko.
ki woh jo dur hain.yu paas nazar aaya hain.

tere saajde mein dil jhukaaya hain sadaa.
teri raaza ko seene se lagaaya hain sadaa.
har karam tera mere haq mein hi lagaa mujhko.
hain kyun naraaz. man mera kyun aaj zaar nazar aaya hain.

:)

I held that beat for a moment.It was not that bad, you see. I saw my life without you.I suddenly felt free. I let go of the tussle.I gave myself the choice. I have put my thoughts to silence.I have silenced all the noise. Its Calm, Its Nice.I am ME.

s.o.s.

can anybody help me, i am drowning and i don't know how to swim,can anybody help me i am lost,and its a dead end ahead,need help, are you listening, or have you gone deaf, need a rebirth , are you giving it , or will i stay living this death, do you see this wound thats getting worse by the day , can you heal it, or you'll let it rot my soul away, are you listening or is this a cry thats there in vain, can you feel it , or do i need to cry my pain over and over again .

Don't Play

Its fragile. Its heated on fire. Its dipped in water. It'll break, ...............Don't play. Its thorny.Its wild. Its let loose. It'll hurt, ............Don't play. Its stretched to the limit.Its tense. Its pulled from the sides. It'll snap, ..............Don't play. Its heavy.Its loaded completely. Its being pushed. It'll drown, ................Don't play. Its mine. The only prized possesion. I've owned it forever .......................................Don't play.

a complicated emotion

I hate you.I love you. I need you.I leave you. I trust you.I doubt you. I search you.I lose you. I unravel you.I puzzle you. I learn you.I teach you. I crave you.I give you. I starve you.I feed you. I pull you.I shirk you. ............................................................................ "It's because I like you, I don't want to be with you. It's a complicated emotion." - Marlin --Finding Nemo.

Chaos

Its a knot in my stomach. Its a lump in my throat. Its a cry that didn't escape. Its thousand hollow words that is music to my ears. Its a distance of seven births or more that is closest to my heart. Its the depth of the deepest ocean that is one dip away. Its a flutter in my heart. Its a kiss on my lips. Its a smile that reached the eye.

UpBeat

Its a beat..its a hum-drum.
I live through it, Everyday.

I live one Life in many lives.
I live one way in many ways.

I search , I find myself there.
I lose my found, I let it stray.

I call my calling, I let it wander.
I dream my dreams, I let it stay.

I own my troubles, I own my peace.
I have my God , I never pray.

Its a beat..its a hum-drum.
I live through it, Everyday.

Gloom

I am void.
Do not feel me.
You will find nothing in there.

I am vaccuum.
Do not come near me.
You will be sucked up inside.

I am dark.
Do not look for me.
You will lose all your light.

I am sorrow.
Do not reach out to me.
You will end up in a cry.

I am death.
Do not seek me.
You will not come out alive.

And life stands still I breathe the air which smells of you. And the sun rises I see the smile in your eyes. And the tide recedes I touch the warmth of your face. And the wind blows I hear the honey of your voice. And I turn to dust I speak your name.

still thirsty

Sweet The Raindrops that fall on my face. Salt The Tears that dampen my cheek. Bitter The Wine I just drank to your name. Sour The Acid in your words I feel. .......And here I am Still Thirsty.

Night Talk

Endless is the starry sky Little twinkles that catch the eye Open my palms and wish a few May rekindle my hopes anew Before its too late for they may die. ------------------------------------ I wait for you as the sun goes down To hold my hand and lead me on Before the night wraps us in its cover With serenity like the quite lover To the land of dreams, over and beyond.

Far From Today

DreamCatcher , catch my dreams And clutch them safely in your grip Don't lose them, keep them safe for me. For One day, far from today When everything has gone astray I might need them back again. My dreams, My hopes For they should stay When all I know has gone away They'll lead me to another world. The kind I may not have seen or heard. My Dreams, My Own, My life ...Old and New. To keep them safe I give to You.

Thought Process

If he loved you with all the power of his soul for a whole lifetime, he couldn't love you as much as I do in a single day.
-Wuthering Heights (1939)

Better than a thousand hollow words, is one word that brings peace.
-Buddha

"...but before I can live with other folks I've got to live with myself.
The one thing that doesn't abide by majority rule is a person's conscience."
- Atticus Finch (in "To Kill A Mocking Bird")

My life has no purpose, no direction, no aim, no meaning, and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out. What am I doing right?
- Charles Schulz

That's the secret to life... replace one worry with another.... (Charlie Brown)
- Charles Schulz

Your cracked country lips,
I still wish to kiss
As to be under the strength of your skin
But it grieves my heart love,
To see you trying to be a part of
A world that just don’t exist.
It’s all just a dream, babe
A vacuum, a scheme, babe
That sucks you into feeling like this.
- bob dylan

My love she speaks like silence
Without ideals or violence
She doesn’t have to say she’s faithfull
Yet she’s true like ice like fire
People carry roses and make promises by the hours
My love she laughs like the flowers
Valentines can’t buy her at all,

-‘Love minus zero’ (1965).